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Your face is emotionless and cold
I freeze whenever you want me to hold
You have lost the sparkle in your eyes
Your creating an own world full of lies.


There's changed something since the last time you dissapeared
please tell me, what have you feared ?
You are not the one that I adore
I don't recognise you anymore


What has happened ? Please let me understand
because this I cannot stand



© Stéphanie Jespers

Sweet goodbye

Sweetheart, please don't cry

It takes time, but you'll be able again to see trough their lie

Go your way, even though all the pain

Keep on going and you'll be happy again

You might feel lost but just go on

You'll find the place where you belong

Sometimes you won't know what's true

But when you turn around, you'll find me here, guiding you

Sweetheart please don't give up right now

We all get trough difficult times somehow

I know that you've been hurt

by all their lies and all their unsounding words

I can't take them away from you

But I can share your tears and guide you trough

After the rain, you will see the sun again

You'll be free of your past and all the pain

...

Little sweetheart, what have you done ?

Please tell me...what went wrong ?

You've touched my hand and asked me to wait

but even before I could answer, it was already too late

You took your wings and looked into the sky

And from the clouds above,I could hear you whispering a sweet goodbye

© by Stéphanie J.

reason

Maybe only I could see

the thousand stars in your eyes, when you were looking at me

My heart was beating every time you passed by
And when you smiled, I felt like I could fly
I was in love and maybe I was a fool
Because you became the reason why I went to school
In all my books I wrote your name

and I spent the days in counting the hours until I saw you again

My graduation should have been my most happiest day

But all I was thinking about was that we were going a different way

I looked at you for the very last time, walking down the street

My eyes were filled with tears and my heart began to bleed

...

I tried to forget you but I can't

I still stare at your picture in my hand

I have your email, your phonenumber but I don't know what to do

It would be so much easier if you just loved me too !

© by Stéphanie J.

our night (song)

This is a song I wrote :

Nobody can understand
What I feel when you hold my hand
They even don’t know what I see
When your eyes are looking at me

Your name is more than a word my dear
You’ve taken away my deepest fear

Come on, let’s touch the stars in the sky
It’s not that far since you make me fly
Look at the moon, shining bright
We both know : this is our night
There is no place in the world I will be
Then here with you, only you and me
I’m going to show you the meaning of love
With the light of the stars coming from above

You took me out of my cage
And gave me love with your embrace
I never loved someone that much
All I want now is you to touch

Your name is more than a word my dear
You’ve taken away my deepest fear

Come on, let’s touch the stars in the sky
It’s not that far since you make me fly
Look at the moon, shining bright
We both know : this is our night
There is no place in the world I will be
Then here with you, only you and me
I’m going to show you the meaning of love
With the light of the stars coming from above

Promise me to stay tonight
And keep on holding me tight
I want to be with you forever
Please, never let me go…never

Come on, let’s touch the stars in the sky
It’s not that far since you make me fly
Look at the moon, shining bright
We both know : this is our night
There is no place in the world I will be
Then here with you, only you and me
I’m going to show you the meaning of love
With the light of the stars coming from above


© by Stéphanie J.

hoping

screaming without making sound

searching things that are already found

Crying without any tears

Being afraid without having fears

Sitting in the dark but hoping for some light

Being alone but wanting to be holded tight

Losing dreams but carry on the thoughts

Trying to fly but even not reaching the clouds

...

Living in the shadow but wanting to see the sun

Trying to figure out when this all has begun

© by Stéphanie J.

you showed me

I've been trough love and pain

but I went on, again and again

At some moments I wasn't that strong

And sometimes I felt like I didn't belong

I was walking without any direction to go

But then you came and showed me a way to follow

You showed me a way to relate

To life, to love and to compensate

I still remember when you said "You should go home."

From that moment I had a place to go, I would never be alone

© by Stéphanie J.

whirlpool

My head is a whirlpool of feelings

with wounds who are crying for healing

Between all this feelings, I hear a song

And it's giving me the strenght to go on

It's guiding me trough the darkest night

and his rhythm is the only light

I fly away on its melody

I fly to the sky, to be free

An angel is sitting on a cloud

watching me, he's looking proud

When the frog is clearing

I recognise the face, I see you breathing

I want to reach you

but I'm not supposed to

Past and future are melting together

Trying to make reality better

But now that I've seen your face

I need to be with you, I need you're embrace

I don't want to lose you a second tome

just let me be with you and I'll be fine

I think I found the place where I belong

I just need to cross the edge, I have to hold on

My head was like a whirlpool of feelings

but now it's clearing

Journey

Life, sometimes seems an endless journey

In which we try to find the right way

We want to find a place to call home

Where we will be loved an never will be alone

We meet people on our way

Some leave, others stay

And then we meet that special one

who makes us feel so strong

Sometimes our hearts will break

And it will be too much to take

But then your friends will be there

let them guide you, because they care

And whenever you feel sad

and everything seems to go bad

just look at the sky

and there you're guardian angel will fly

Go on and don't be afraid to let go your past

because the memories will forever last

Sooner or later we will find our place

and from that moment, our lifes will be filled with love and grace

© Stéphanie J.

sounds

I can't stop what I'm hearing within

I can't ignore the pain I'm in

One step closer to the edge it takes

and them I'm about to break

I need room to breath

I want to run out but it's still here

It's always running behind me

And I'm going mad very slowly

It's always there

but not when I'm sleep because then I'm not aware

I wish it could stop

I wish this world could just shut up

I just want to sit in a dark place this time

with some music to trying to drown out the pain

I can't turn back time
But I long to see you back, even just for a while
I'm feeling so alone
And I know you're not coming home
Nobody is meant to stay
But why is it you who's so far away ?
With you I had nothing to fear
So it's hard to go on without you being here
Sometimes I want to try
to get you back from the angels in the sky
I know it's not possible to do
But I don't care, I will do everything for you
I really miss you like hell
You were the only one who knew me so well
You were too young to die
too young to see the angels fly
too young to see the light
and I was too young...to be left behind

© by Stéphanie J.

My friend

My friend,


take my hand and never let it go
promise me that you will always follow
Don't be afraid to let go the past
the future is waiting, we will be there very fast
I know that we will reach the end
'cause you are giving us the strenght
We don't know yet how to feel
but soon, our wounds will start to heal
My friend, we will make it together
At the end, everything will be better
Come on and let's follow the stars
let's forget all our scars
I know there is a place for us out there
and we will find it...somewhere...
just take my hand and never let it go
and promise me that you will always follow




© Stéphanie and Federica

untitled

This life is hurting me sometimes
Why can't I be happy for a while ?
Why don't I see the light?
Why have I to fight ?
What am I doing wrong ?
Why can't I be strong ?
I know the future is waiting for me
I have to let go the past and I have to be free
It's not easy to go that way
It's not easy to let the memories fading away
But I have to
No matter how much pain this will do

© by Stéphanie J.

I still remember your voice
you just had no choice
Now you're so far away
and every second feels like a day
I believe in you
and I will always do
Do you still think about me ?
Do the memories make you happy ?
Sometimes I long to touch you
Sometimes I long to feel you
I want to hear you say again that I'm the only one
you and me, we just belong...
But they came for you that day
and since then, you're so far away
you told me not to be afraid
And I wouldn't, as long as you stayed
Darling, I want you to come back
'cause without you, my days are turning black
I know it cannot be
and it's really hurting me
My wounds will never heal
this pain is just to real...

© by Stéphanie J.

hurting...

Sometimes, you're not feeling that strong

and everything seems to go wrong

You want to run away

'cause you're thinking that this pain is going to stay

you're left behind with a broken heart

and you're dreaming of a new start

But you're feeling so alone

and you can't do it on your own

Look at me, I'm here

I'll make your pain disappear

Distance doesn't matter to keep me from you

© by Stéphanie J.

The angels are screaming

In mijn dromen zijn we bij elkaar
In mijn dromen, maar ach, die zijn niet waar

Elke nacht hoor ik de engelen wenen
terwijl mijn hart is aan het schreeuwen
ik wil niet wakker worden zonder jou aan mijn zij
ik wil niet wakker worden want dan is alles weer voorbij

In mijn dromen zijn we bij elkaar
In mijn dromen, maar ach, die zijn niet waar

Elke nacht hoor ik de engelen wenen
terwijl mijn hart is aan het schreeuwen
nu kunnen we niet meer doen wat we willen
en niemand kan mijn verlangen stillen

In mijn dromen zijn we bij elkaar
In mijn dromen, maar ach, die zijn niet waar

Elke nacht zullen de engelen blijven wenen
en mijn hart zal nooit ophouden met schreeuwen

Maar ooit hoop ik dat we bij elkaar kunnen komen
en niet enkel in mijn dromen
en wanneer ik dan naar de hemel kijk in de nacht
zal ik daar eindelijk een engel zien die naar me lacht






In my dreams, I'm with you
In my dreams, but...they aren't true

Every night I can hear the angels crying
While my heart is dying
I don't want to wake up without you being here
and nobody can take away the things I fear

In my dreams, I'm with you
In my dreams, but...they aren't true

Every night I can hear the angels crying
while my heart is dying
We can't do what we want anymore now
But we'll find a way... somehow

In my dreams, I'm with you
In my dreams, but...they aren't true

The angels won't stop crying
My hear will never stop dying

But I hope that we can come together
And that we can try to make this life becoming better
And when I'll look to the sky at night
I will see the angels, shining to me so bright


© by Stéphanie J.

Dream...

Ik wil niet aan je denken
maar kan niet anders dan je al mijn aandacht te schenken

wanneer ik mijn ogen sluit dan zie ik jouw gezicht
dan ben je niet meer ver, maar juist heel dicht

Het breekt me om te voelen diep in mij
dat je nooit hier zult staan, aan mijn zij

De zon zal nooit volop kunnen schijnen
want telkens ik mijn ogen open, weet ik dat je zult verdwijnen

Je zal een droom blijven voor altijd
maar toch hoop ik dat je op een dag mijn gevoelens bevrijdt.




I don't want to think about that time
but I can't get you out of my mind

When I close my eyes I can see you're breathing
I can even feel the way your hart is beating

It's breaking me deep inside
that you will never stand next to me, shining bright

The sun will not shine forever
Because when I open my eyes, we aren't together

You'll stay a dream until my final day
But I still hope there is a way....


© by Stéphanie J.

secret

stil geheim, bewaard diep in mij
nooit durven zeggen,
mijn geheim ben jij

Heb nu pas geen angst meer
ik wist het al een hele tijd
en nu doet het niet meer zeer

Eindelijk thuisgekomen
het holle gevoel is weg
eindelijk durf ik weer te dromen

Gevoelens altijd ondermijnd
bang voor de gevolgen
maar zopas
werd de afstand verkleind





I kept the secret in my heart
I wouldn't tell that it was you
I knew that from the start

But I'm not afraid anymore
you're the only one
I knew it already before

Finally I came home again
The feeling went away
It reminded me of who I am

I was too scared to see the truth
but this way
is not so long anymore
I will be back with you



© by Stéphanie J.

Thousand eyes

1000 ogen staren me aan
kijken met een lege blijk
waarom kunnen ze me niet verstaan ?

1000 ogen staren me na
ik krijg geen lucht meer
ze volgen me, waarheen ik ook ga

1000 ogen, allen op mij gericht
ik kan me niet verstoppen
ze kijken me recht in mijn gezicht

1000 ogen maar zoals de jouwe zijn er geen bij
1000 ogen maar enkel de jouwe maken me blij
1000 ogen maar ze moeten allen wijken
want ik wil enkel in de jouwe kijken.


the english translation :

1000 eyes are staring
looking to me so cold
they're all misunderstanding

1000 eyes, I can't follow
I even can't breath
they keep on looking, wherever I go

1000 eyes are looking into my face
I can't hide
it seems like a race

1000 eyes but I don't see yours
1000 eyes without any colors
1000 eyes but they're not hiding the truth
1000 eyes but I only want you

© by Stéphanie J.

the sea...

Hi people,
The poem I put here is on of the first poems I wrote, it was for school, for homework.
I wrote it in Dutch but I'll also made a translation. I put both here.

De zee

soms gaat ze erg tekeer

maar de rust keert telkens weer

koude golven stromen over mijn voeten

net alsof ze me iets zeggen moeten

langzaam slenteren door het nog warme zand

samen, naast elkaar, hand in hand

we liepen daar langs het water

en fantaseerden volop over later

we keken nog naar de zonsondergang

en beloofden om bij elkaar te blijven, ons hele leven lang

maar toen kwam een einde aan ons geluk

en al onze dromen gingen stuk

in het licht van de maan

zei je me dat ik je moest laten gaan

hier, op deze plek waar we voor het eerst kusten

wilde je voor eeuwig rusten

ik denk aan wat je me hebt gezegd

"wees niet bang, ik kom wel terecht"

aan de hemel verschijnt nu een ster, speciaal voor mij

zelfs zo ver weg ben je nog bij mij

jij en ik, altijd bij elkaar

en de zee die fluistert zachtjes :"Ja, het is waar."

The english translation :

The sea

sometimes very restless

But she'll always find back her silence

Cold waves around my feet

Like they have to tell me a secret, so deep

Slowly slauntering trough the sand

we were together, I hold your hand

We walked there on the water

and dreamed about later

we watched the sun going under

we promisted to stay with eachoter, even if we grew older

but our hapiness came to an end

and all our dreams were burned

right here, underneath the stars and the moon

you've said me that your end was coming soon

Right here you wanted to stay forever

Right here where we first kissed eachtoher

I can still hearing you say

"Don't be afraid, I'll find my way."

There appeared a star in the sky shinging bright

Even so far away, you're still by my side

Foverer me and you

and the sea whispers "yes, it's true."

© by Stéphanie J.

The end has come...just stay...

The moon replaced the sun
And we know; our ending has begun
The warmth went away
And this cold is going to stay
We don’t know where we belong
We only hear the angels singing their song
Not about heaven, the sky or the stars
But about loneliness, pain and scars
The sky so blue is now turning black
And we know, we can’t go back
Our feelings are being killed
In the end, all our dreams will be unfulfilled
We’re too far now to go back
But I won’t let our days turn black
Just stay with me forever
‘cause we only can make it together
Stay with me ‘til the end of time
And everything will be fine.


© by Stéphanie J.